Something in Life

What I believed to be just a regular summer turned into a summer that I could never forget. It was April 4, 2013. Me, along with the other 3 pioneer chatters, founded the Chatters ID 113. It was in this group that bonds were formed, even before the start of classes. It was in this group, that I came to know her.

Who exactly is "her"? Again, in a previous post, I mentioned there that I cannot disclose her identity. But what I can disclose about her, is that she studies in De La Salle University. She's currently taking up a course in the College of Science. For me, it's because of her that I actually find strength to get out of bed and actually make something out of my life. Truth be told, if I could just stay in bed for the whole day, I would. But the hope of bumping into her at school gives me the urge to wake up early.

To describe her, she's smart, friendly, beautiful and ideal. I don't find fault in her, no. None at all. Not even fault of the infinitesimal value. I want to do everything for her, anything that could make her smile. I don't want her to be sad at all because I feel that when she is sad, I am partially at fault when I cannot make her smile. I mean, I really like her. We're not even together, but then again this is just one of the few things in life that I have to fight for.

My father once said, "If you're going to have a crush, be loyal to that crush. Because if you can't prove to be loyal to your crush, how much more if you become her boyfriend?" Those words struck my heart, and I've lived by my father's words since then. I don't know if she knows that I really like her, but maybe she does. I mean, the people around her know all about it. Yesterday, her blockmates helped me surprise her for her birthday. It was an advanced gift, I couldn't do it any other day because of time constraints. Again, I couldn't be more thankful for her blockmates.

What the future holds is uncertain. But what I can certainly say out loud, is that I truly like this girl. That I'd do anything (forgive my redundancy) for her. Again, life isn't a question of can or can't. There are some things in life that you just do without question, without regrets. I find happiness with her, and whatever I do for her makes me smile if she smiles.

If ever the day comes, then I'd be delighted. But for now, I just want to express what I feel for her. Maybe she knows that I like her, maybe she doesn't. But I'll tell her that I really like her someday. But today, is not that day yet.